Getting Sober Was The Hardest And Most Rewarding Thing I’ve Ever Done

SHE KNOWS THE TRUTH –

Oct. 23, 2023 – I was sick of drinking. Sick of thinking about drinking. Sick of buying, hiding, and disposing of my drinks.
I was sick of the lies rolling off my tongue like the truth once had. Sick of the dual life. Of managing the impossibility of moderation.
Sick of walking on eggshells. Sick of pretending to be okay. Sick of being in survival mode.
Sick of isolation. Sick of crying. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.
So, so, so tired.
Fast forward 4 years. My life today is a direct result of addiction and divorce. Not the experiences themselves, but my response to them.
The work I’ve done because of them. The deeply grateful woman I’ve become because of them. The confidence I’ve gained from showing up again and again and again, even when it was hard.
I showed up even when the 3-hour drive in the backseat of my parents car from Gary, IN (where I got arrested for a DUI) to Madison, WI (where I lived) was perhaps the most horrendously awful car ride of all time. I couldn’t defend myself. I didn’t even try.